I know there are others out there who for their own reasons
and struggles have shoved that part away. In my case growing up, I felt that to
be a girl I wouldn’t be accepted, because it seemed that it was the boys who
always got the attention I craved from my biological father. So I tried to be
like them. I separated myself from anything "girly" that would be a reason for him to not accept me. I don’t ever remember my father looking at me and telling me I was
beautiful or precious to him just for who I was. For being his daughter There were days I wanted to
dress up, I wanted to twirl around and be his little princess. I begged for him
to notice me, to accept me, and as I grew up I realized that’s not how things
worked. I learned well that to want to be pretty or to show a feminine side was
vain, conceited and sinful. For years I believed that, never realizing what a
big lie it was. I believed that I had less value. I was abused mentally, emotionally,
physically and sexually by several different men in my life and it crushed me.
It has greatly affected my life even to this day on how I see men and how hard
it is for me to trust them. It’s something I will be working through for a long
time to come. It really gave me a twisted idea of what beautiful is.
So, we know what the lie is but what about the truth? The
truth is that I’m made in the image of the holy God. I am a precious beautiful
daughter in the eyes of my heavenly Father as well as the Daddy that he sent
into my life. I have value. I am worth it, because Jesus says I am. That is the
truth we have to realize, believe and live out. No it won’t be easy but most
things that are worth it aren’t. So I challenge my fellow sisters in Christ,
today when you stand in front of the mirror, when you find all your flaws tell
yourself that Christ made you beautiful. He doesn’t make junk. Tell Satan that
his lies aren’t welcome in your life and start believing your heavenly Father.
Satan likes to silence us with secrets and bind us with
lies. We must refuse to surrender. The day that we let him silence us and our
stories is the day that he wins. We must use our stories, our brokenness to let
the light of God shine through for others to see. I will never stay silent. May
God be glorified in and through me forever. ~KrissElise
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